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Okay soooooooo I just stole my journal back from one of my friends cuz he was being a total duesche to my friend Sasha.. so sasha i appologize for him... hes an ass... but its mine again so ya
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had a party? yes

-gone to a party? yes

-spent the night with someone? eh Kinda

-laughed until your stomach hurt? Yes

-laughed until you almost peed your pants? Almost

-gone on a vacation? yes

-tanned? no

-went to a camp? no

-swam? Yes

-went to the movies? Fuck yeah

-gone shopping? Yeah

-Had a job? Yup

-gotten freakishly bored? All the Freakishly Freakin Time

-have you gotten sun burned yet? nope

-been outside during a lightning storm? yes

-Been to another state? yes

-been to another country? yes

-changed someting about your appearance? Yeah

-been to the the hospital with an injury? haha yeah

-commited a crime/broken the law? possibly

-gone on a road trip? no

-had a girfriend or boyfriend? no

-dumped a girlfriend or boyfriend? no

-been to a concert? nope

-Been in trouble with the cops/parents? yes parents

-had a memorable moment? quite a few, quite...a...few

-had a horrible moment? the end of my summer sucked

-made a new friend? yessum

-missed a friend? yeah.. JEEEEEEEENNNNNN

-Slept under the stars? yes

-thought about school? im in school

-been to the beach? yeeee, no

-thought about a special someone? Shane
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Alrighty well i guess i better fill in all of my friends and whoever reads this... Well here it goes.

Today i went to the doctors office for the prelim exam before my transplant. they said they are thinking its gonna happen in about six months, so that doesnt make me happy. and i found out that my mom wont be able to donat her kidney because she has high blood pressure so there are two sides to that. the bad side is that of course she feels bad because she cant help me out.. which i totally understand.. and the good side is that she cant give me her kidney which truly makes me happy because i never wanted to risk her healt for mine. i know she would totally argue that point with me but if something were to happen to her i would never be able to forgive myself. if i sounded like an arogant ass there im sorry, im truly not. so my brother has offered to get tested to see if he can donate, whiich means SO much to me. its a really big deal for him to even suggest that.. i mean when he first did i nearly cried.so yeah there going to test him in about a week and then we will know if he can donate. ut in the meantime i have been entered onto the California Donor list.. whch is a 3 and 1/2 year waiting period (talk about your private club jeesh) and my kidney wont even make it that long so i would have to be on dialisis for the time being. so that means this A) a new way of life B) no school for a year C) no work at all D) no over exertion which means anything more than lifting a jar of peanut utter, which i would be able to eat. so yeah that is my like at this point in time


P.s. If you or anyone you know are interested in donating a kidney or any organ to a child in need let me know and i can give you contact info for the transplant coordinator at Licile Packard Childrens Hospital in stanford
Current Music:
An Honest Mistake- The Bravery
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So i havnt fully updated this in a LONG time. <(haha pun on my name) okay im over it. but anyways. about a week ago i asked this girl Chaslin that i used to work with out. it wasnt in person which was my first true mistake. but i was talking to her online and she told me that she just had a fight with her b/f and yeah i felt shitty.. not for me because im totally cool with that but just the fact that she was fighting with someone and she was sad totally made me feel bad. she too nice of a girl to be sad ya know, well we havnt really talked since which truly sucks because shes a really cool person. well in other news i got a new Job. I now work as a cafe seller at Borders Books in union city.. so if any of my friends are out there or in that neck of the woods at a movie or something.. stop by and chat or get some coffee. so since i've been working there i've made a couple of new friends. my manager Shuan is FUCKING hilarious. he's a bit of a germaphobe but he puts a humorus twist to it. and he is TOTALLY in live with johnn depp (yes i elieve he is gay) but like he's seen Charlie and the chocolate factory 10 Times. i was like OMG thats Crazy. so yeah.. i've learned to make alot of coffee drinks and its been extremely fun.. i drink way too much coffee when im there. like on monday i had a massive caffiene withdrawl. like i was tired at 5pm and i woke up at 10am.. but anyways. its really fun there and i get alot more hours then i did at CMM. So yeah, I also got a new car which is totally awesome. i got an Acura Integra. its so much fun to drive.. and it has GREAT gas mileage. so school started on monday.. woooo another semester at Ohlone. Jr College. but i've finally decieded what i want to become when i grow up. i mean i'm still going to do photography as a hobby, but right now i am working on getting into the nursing program at ohlone.. i want to become a Pediatric nurse so i can give back ya know. but besides that nothing has really happened it my life.. i go into the doctors tomorrow so they can test me and make sure im eligeble for another transplant. which is really scary.

Well laters Props from the 510


Sidenote: so recently a couple of people who i thought i was friends with and i totally thought they were cool people, became total assholes. Jasen Champaeu and Tiffany Heggebo, Jasen for one tells me that we have never been friends which i thought we were at one point but ohwell hes not a big loss. but tiffany. she has this newfound vision or faith in god. Which im totally cool with you know, to each their own, but its kindof obsessive, like i told her something and she said that it was "Gods" will and she knows exactly how i feel about any religous subject. but recently she's said that I did something wrong, yet, she wont tell me what so i can't fix it.. so yeah it sucks losing her as a friend because i dont have anyone to have moral conversations with anymore.. ah fuck it i dont need some highschooler to make me feel good..
Current Mood:
bouncy Groovin
Current Music:
Atmosphere- The Driving Song
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Why is it that i always end up having a crush on the people i cant hve
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being rejected sucks.. the end
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So yeah.. today i got a new Job.. i will now be a Cafe Seller at Borders Bookes and Music... so i'm a coffe guy, how rockstar is that.. so yeah im quiting my other job tomorrow and asking a girl out.. so yayness
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True Story. A religion teacher assigned her class an essay on what makes a good Christian. One student wrote about praying nightly, say no to abortion, banning gay marriage, and donating money. The other student wrote about talking to God and allowing people to enjoy their lives, and supporting gay marriage. The day the teacher was to hand the papers back, she called up the second student and told him she would pray for him when he went to hell. The student asked why would he be going to hell, and why he got an F on his paper. The teacher told him that Catholisim is against gay marriage. The student looked at her for a minute, then said aloud, "I'm gay." The teacher kicked him out of class as if he had said fuck or worshiped Satan. A girl in the back of class who had a boyfriend and was obviously straight got up and left too.

If you would leave the classroom, repost this. It doesn't matter if you're straight, bi, or gay. It doesn't matter if you're catholic or not. Everyone is a human being and deserves happiness.
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1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
um.. a cat clawed my lip


2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Massive amounts of wholes, a Nosferatu poster, and a Wunder Brewing Co Poster, then i have a bulliten board

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
ITs a flip phone

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
Punk, Rock, Hip-Hop, Emo, Really anything except for country

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
like 6:34 pm

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Um.. to sleep and get a new job

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS AT TIMES?
Living a normal life without the influence of 24 pills a day

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
My Darkroom setup, or my computer

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
Summer mornings, and Spring evenings

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
sometimes

11. IF YOU DIED TOMORROW
i would die tomorrow, and i would be mourned

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Myself, and the doctors

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
Adidas Moves

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
I love red heads, but usually like either short hair or shoulder length

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
um... i could see my self proposing to a girl like.... in a resturant

16. DO YOU LIKE PORN?
i dont like it but i do look at it

17. WHAT ARE YOUR FIVE FAVORITE MOVIES?
Music From Another Room, Under The Tuscan sun, Eternal Sunshine, Nightmare before christmas, and Vincent

18. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR YOUR HONEYMOON?
rome, or england

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
haha my mom

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
no

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
fuck i dont know, A Cd or something

22. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE SINGER(s)
wow.. i dunno, um.. Carla Bruni

23. FAVORITE BAND(s)
Alot of them, But mainly greenday

24. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ?
any book thats captures my attention

25. FAVORITE DESSERT
um.. i dont know

26. How DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE?
Suger, with cream, flavored if possible

27. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE?
" All that we see or seem, is but a dream within a dream" Edgar Allen poe

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
no.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Just straight up tell them

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED: 37


31. BLONDES, REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES? RedHeads


32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
Tiff, or random people

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
When people talk during movies,(AKA Mike Barkoff) or when someone answers there cell 3 times during a movie

34. HAVE YOU EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
FUCK YAH

35. WHO IS YOUR CURRENT CRUSH?
This girl at my work.. i have totally fallen for her

36: WHAT IS YOUR WORST FEAR?
Heights

37: SAY SOMETHING TO SOMEONE YOU HAVEN'T SEEN/TALKED TO IN AWHILE:
Ogaslag

38: HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND NOT MEANT IT?
nope

39: WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
listening to music

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
i wouldnt

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
Bored as fuck

42. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PIZZA?
Peperonni, Sausage, Ham, Pinapple

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
um.. nothing

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
it jsut passed.. and i got darkroom stuff

45. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF IT SUDDENLY STARTED RAINING BLOOD?
Laugh and then tell a little kid it was frostinf and he should go drink it
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